I love you n I am proud of you!

I just want to tell you I am proud of you. I know it is EXTREMELY hard to do the right things, but you try with everything in you to keep calm and carry on. You have a big heart and you are compassionate. You want extra love and your little love tank just needs extra sometimes. I am not a perfect mom by no means but I am starting to see that God gave me as your mom for special purposes. I don't know what tomorrow holds, but I know who holds our future. Thank you for being an awesome son!

Playing with your action figures

Snapped this cute picture of you playing with action figures. I LOVE YOUR CREATIVITY. My brain might not keep up with yours but you are gifted and precious!!

What I am choosing to believe by Gods Grace

We are in the midst of a tough battle. Many times you are full of arguments and you are against authority in your life. You have some anger inside that needs to be dealt with and some hurts that need to dealt  with that come out as anger. I am doing all I can to get you the help you need. I myself am struggling with the feeling of being a failure as a parent. It is really hard. A couple of weeks ago you got kicked out of school for the first time ever in your life. My heart felt crushed. However, that very morning when me and daddy were reading the word together, God spoke this: 

12/20/13

"You are part of my plan. Hope is in you. You will carry the torch of hope for your family. I to know what it is like to have a son and watch him suffer. To see him at the hands of the tormentors, but a time will come when he will give up his spirit and die to himself. I could only see my son going through all that he did his . entire life because I knew how great it would be for him after I raised him.

Joshua will give up his spirit and to himself and I will raise him. Believe in me. His future is not condemned but it is glorious. 

You are stronger than you think. You have my spirit filling you. That is all the strength you will need for all you will ever face. You are a warrior in the lineage of Gideon. You feel scared and weak but I will use you to defeat the works of Satan. Victory belongs to you, you are my chosen. Don't repeat or even think about the lies that come to you for Satan knows your role as well and is trying to have you destroy yourself. But I have declared that you will endure and triumph. Find your strength in what I have said and give no weight to the feelings of defeat and despair. I love you. I am with you and I have already secured your victory. Trust in me

I remember that morning being a really sorrowful morning. I had prayed in tongues extremely hard. My heart felt sore. So, the Lord gave us a word. So, no matter what I see or how I feel or what I think  I choose to believe what God says about you. You are a prophet to the nations and you will die to yourself and you will be raised to new life with Christ Jesus.  No weapon formed against you shall ever prosper. And all these things, you are more than a conqueror through Christ Jesus who loves you extremely and completely! I love you Josh and I am continuing to pray for you and Mikayla every day.

MY PRECIOUS BOY

You look so precious sleeping in the car on our way to church this morning. I just had to take a picture. I love you baby!

So, we got to church and you were really tired!! BUT YOU WOKE UP TO PRAY. LOL. Precious!!!