First time getting busted as an adult

 This is a first I hoped I would NEVER have to write about.  Your first charge of anything illegal.  You have court on 10/10/2022.  We are praying that you will be repentant and respectful and for God's sake take advice from someone wise who has walked in your shoes.  Your rebellion and attitude get you in more trouble.  One day I know you will learn, but it is so stinking hard to watch you learn the hard way.  EVEN SO, I need you to know I love you no matter what happens.  I love you enough to not give you a comfy place to do things like this.  We are already talking to you about moving out of the house.  There are rules to living here and we are seeing you go against all of these. MY HEART IS HEAVY. I don't want you homeless.  It is so close to that point and it is killing me.  PRAYING HARD!!! 

My heart hurts for you- and I PRAY

 you just broke up with your girlfriend and amber yesterday, and it hurts to see you hurt. You are making choices and going down the road that’s very dangerous for you. My heart is heavy for you and I am praying that you come out of it and you know Jesus deeply and intimately one day. I know you have a God shaped hole in your heart that you are trying to fill with all kinds of activities friends and even illegal substances.  as a mother, it hurts to see you go that way. My prayer for you is that you will let God reach down and love you and fill that whole. I can’t control the decisions you make, but I can pray! Lord, teach Joshua in a way that lets him KNOW YOUR LOVE. REAL HEALING TRANSFORMING LOVE.  I love you no matter what! But I will have to allow you to make your own adult choices. Praying God spares your life in any consequence that you experience. 

YOU HAVE GROWN UP AT WARP SPEED

Well since my last post so much has happened. you have now gotten your first car, first true love (Evelyn Taylor), your first and 2nd job (Sonic then Zaxbys), not necessarily in that order. 

AND the BIGGEST GROWNG UP is beginning now. On Friday you shocked us with the news that you are now going to be a father. It’s so scary but at the same time, a blessing. It may not have happened in the order I believe it was supposed to, but I KNOW GOD USES ALL THINGS!! For the past year and a half,  I had been craving babies touches and have wondered if that was God preparing me for grand children. Now I know He was. I had no clue it would be this soon, but will receive this blessing just as I did when you were born. It was a shock but a blessing as well. Now I will start a blog spot for my first grandchild. If you want to check that out at myfirstgrandchild2021.blogspot.com

REMEMBER I LOVE YOU

I don’t always get the chance to tell you these things, but over the past few months I have been so proud of the growth and maturity that is starting to shine through. I found a calendar that had all these words that I could not have expressed better myself to you. I want to do something with them but for now they are my heart to you!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!

Josh made mac n cheese!!!!

YUM! You didn’t think you could, but you did! you made it good tonight. 

1. boil macaroni

2. mix cheese and milk in one container

3. put butter in the main dish and add hot macaroni on top of this till butter melts!

4. mix sauce in and voila!!!!

Josh,

You are doing so well!!! Your hard work will pay off!! I am so proud of your good choices lately!!! You are coming out of some funk and future is looking brighter every day!!!

First Job interview

So proud of you tackling your first interview at Dairy Queen.